lost at home

a western slope colorado collaboration
sound production jones for sound rob jones
music and lyrics emily masson
vocals emily masson, tia brown
melody guitars rob jones
rhythm guitars emily masson
special guest guitar melody aj fullerton
life begins again 
courtesy gitcha records
bass levi brown
drums mike beck
percussion michele jones


Music is a trail of breadcrumbs for anyone who seeks to find themselves over and over again in the incessant buzzing of the bossy bossy.

In order to find our way; we must lose it.

Something in all of us knows how much real potential we have, it knows the fullness of our voices, and it knows how deeply we deserve unconditional  love. Many of us are taught to live in ways that are less than that knowing.  Sometimes we curl up in a ball as our soul declares mutiny against twisted demands.  Sometimes we actively rebel, telling those who seek to nudge us to back off.  And other times we dance and play freely remembering who we truly are.  Wherever we are, let’s meet and seek to understand one another.

Self reliant we have the ability to pull ourselves up, over and over again.

Know your own values before taking on any others’.  

thanks for playing,

emily

lost at home

They got all of us bickering
They got all of us dickering
They got all of us on our phone

They got us lost at home
They got us lost at home

They got all of us stopping
They got all of us hopping
They got all of us on our own

They got us lost at home
They got us lost at home

And I’ll greet you face to face
Just to keep our sense of place
Cause I dare to care
And I dare to breathe the air

They got all of us locked in
They got all of us talkin
They got all of us all alone

They got us lost at home
They got us lost at home

And I’ll greet you face to face
Just to keep our sense of place
Cause I dare to care
And I dare to breathe the air

spiraling up

What’s become of me
Am I something I can’t see
Am I somewhere in a place
I can’t face
Narrowing is harrowing
It’s time borrowing
It’s time sorrowing away
It’s time sorrowing away

But maybe I’m spiraling up
Maybe I’m filling my cup
Maybe I’m not spiraling down
But maybe I’m spiraling up
Maybe I’m filling my cup
Maybe I’m not spiraling down
I’m always here and you’re not around
I’m always here and you’re not around

My pristine not so sheen
I’ve made my many scene
Ego too big to fail
Domesticated dedicated
Many times medicated
Sanity’s ship had sailed
Sanity’s ship had sailed

But maybe I’m spiraling up
Maybe I’m filling my cup
Maybe I’m not spiraling down
But maybe I’m spiraling up
Maybe I’m filling my cup
Maybe I’m not spiraling down
I’m always here and you’re not around
I’m always here and you’re not around

become the one

landing on my head
need to go to bed
wondering what i said
lyin on my side
need to get a ride
wondering where to hide
wondering where to hide

become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be
become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be

lyin on my side
need to get a ride
wondering what’s behind
landing on my head
need to go to bed
wondering what’s ahead
wondering what’s ahead

become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be
become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be

don’t want to be famous, blameless
for actions
don’t want to be nameless, named
for infractions
I want to live somewhere in truth not dare
not too visible, not unseen
I want to live with dignity
I want to live with dignity

become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be
become the one
you’re meant to be
don’t be the one
you pretend to be

don’t leave your heart
don’t leave your heart
don’t leave your heart
don’t leave your heart

her every way

who i was
memory
that old girl
love to see
caught in couloir
cut and carved
insatiable
and starved

insatiable
and starved

she sends you away
you sway
she calls you in
you bend
there’s no telling
what she’s telling
you today
just be ready for her
every way
just be ready for her
every way

conversations
could have had
all the times
should have had
elegance lost
not the cost
it’s……vision blind
it’s……vision blind

she sends you away
you sway
she calls you in
you bend
there’s no telling
what she’s telling
you today
just be ready for her
every way
just be ready for her
every way

life begins again

I’ve got a few fucks left
I haven’t spent them yet
I get inept I get
Upset
But onward I
Allowed I try
Cause I am damned to be
A butterfly
Cause I am damned to be
A butterfly

Throw your inside out
Decide what goes back in
Face your black and white out
Absolve your sin
Reminded of self kindness
That never seemed to win
That is when life begins again
That is when life begins again

I wrote a letter to
I wrote it to myself
To put obsessions on
the shelf
There they’ll be
For eternity
Cause I am damned to change
Into me
Cause I am damned to change
Into me

Throw your inside out
Decide what goes back in
Face your black and white out
Absolve your sin
Reminded of self kindness
That never seemed to win
That is when life begins again
That is when life begins again

Don’t be sorry to blossom
Don’t be ashamed to shine
The purpose of our time
Is to grow
Labor in love
Let passions find
Fearless seeds to sow
Fearless seeds to sow

Throw your inside out
Decide what goes back in
Face your black and white out
Absolve your sin
Reminded of self kindness
That never seemed to win
That is when life begins again
That is when life begins again

broken shells

to privilege
to bitch
exclusive
super rich
i’m tired
of the hitch
i’m not sorry
i won’t be missed

i won’t keep your broken shells
i won’t leave my past to dwell
i won’t keep your tales to tell
don’t worry
my presence here to stay
i won’t pray for yesterday
living without you in a hurry

to selfish
narcissist
you solely
exist
i’m so tired
of your grist
i’m not sorry
you won’t be missed

i won’t keep your broken shells
i won’t leave my past to dwell
i won’t keep your tales to
tell don’t worry
my presence here to stay
i won’t pray for yesterday
living without you in a hurry
and I’m living without you
in a hurry

why not ask why

when the cop is the robber
and the church is the sinner
and the source is the lie
then power is the winner

i don’t want to eat this
American pie
not counting the dead on the other side
i don’t want to eat this
American pie
not counting the dead on
the other side
not counting the dead on
the other side

why not ask why
why not ask why

when the law is flawed
and the courts are fraud
and greed gets so high
then money is god

i don’t want to eat this
American pie
not counting the dead on the other side
i don’t want to eat this
American pie
not counting the dead onthe other side
not counting the dead on
the other side

why not ask why
why not ask why

mother nature cries

Mother nature cries
Listen to me
I gave you skies
And harmony
It’s not right to deny
What I see
Cause what’s good for you
Is good for me
Mother nature cries
Mother nature cries

Mother nature cries
I’ve been used
I’ve been bulldozed
I’ve been bruised
It’s not right to deny
My view
Cause what’s good for me
Is good for you
Mother nature cries
Mother nature cries

We’re not free To fall
We’re not free to sow nothing at all
We’re not free To fall
We’re not free to sow nothing at all
Mother nature cries
Mother nature cries

Mother nature cries
I’m on fire
All for things you acquire
It’s not right to deny
What I say
Cause what you can’t be with
Can’t be escaped
Mother nature cries
Mother nature cries

We’re not free to fall
We’re not free to sow nothing at all
We’re not free to fall
We’re not free to sow nothing at all
Mother nature cries
Mother nature cries

whatchu du

I hope someone steals
Your identity
Then I’d have serenity
No longer have to deal
With you
I hope someone runs
Ahead of me
To find a kind of remedy
I can’t let you do
Watchu du


Well you lied and cheated
The stuff you stole and whored
Couldn’t work
Couldn’t bother being bored
Gave up your son
Adoption
Room and board
In the way of fun
Without him to ignore
There’s more time
To score

I hope someone steals
Your identity
Then I’d have serenity
No longer deal
With you
I hope someone runs
Ahead of me
To find a kind of remedy
I can’t let you do
Watchu du

Now mining wealthy suckers
All the time
All fat; All that
Food and wine
Always planning
The future party
Attacking hearts
Never stop
But you start it
The rest of the time
Robbing family blind

I hope someone steals
Your identity
Then I’d have serenity
No longer deal
With you
I hope someone runs
Ahead of me
To find a kind of remedy
I can’t let you do
Watchu du

The collectors calling
Giving you the squeeze
No longer could you do
As you please
Well boy you cried
The well ran dry
Lost everything
But you didn’t know why
Cause lady fortune’s a tease
You’ve got
Stalking disease

I hope someone steals
Your identity
Then I’d have serenity
No longer deal
With you
I hope someone runs
Ahead of me
To find a kind of remedy
I can’t let you do
Watchu du

our eyes are wide

somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
making all those decisions
his modus operandi
too handsy in
my nuclear divisions
another financial bomb
don’t want to be the man’s mom
somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
somebody makes somebody
faster than
somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
making all those decisions

laundry cooking cleaning
all completed
no added provision
foreclosure on our bodies’
waiting
on his decision
he just complicates my life
don’t want to be the man’s wife
somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
somebody makes somebody
faster than
somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
making all those decisions

Terrorize paralyze
His decision
Our demise
He’ll patronize
Terrorize paralyze
His decision
Our demise
He’ll justify
Rationalize
He’ll Pacify
But our eyes are wide

Ownership partnership
Agreement and
Indemnification
All created for the lawyer’s
Education
He just wants to do me wrong
For so long

somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
somebody makes somebody
faster than
somebody makes somebody
faster than the man
making all those decisions

Terrorize paralyze
His decision
Our demise
He’ll patronize
Terrorize paralyze
His decision
Our demise
He’ll justify
Rationalize
He’ll Pacify
But our eyes are wide

when we’re eighty

When
When We’re eighty
We’ll have a smoke
We won’t have to drink
When
When We’re eighty
I’ll tell jokes
That won’t make you think
I’ll coddle you with
arms so thin
I’ll stop hollerin
And we won’t have love
On the brink
I’ll coddle you with
arms so thin
I’ll stop hollerin
And we won’t have love
On the brink

When
When We’re eighty
We’ll walk
And we’ll cook
When
When We’re eighty
We’ll talk
I’ll still give you the look

I’ll coddle you with
Arms so strong
We’ll get by We’ll get along
And we won’t have love
On the hook
I’ll coddle you with
Arms so strong
We’ll get by We’ll get along
And we won’t have love
On the hook

When we were twenty
We had plenty of time
When we were thirty
I’m sure we lost our minds
Now after forty
Don’t know the story
But I know
We come home again
So we both
Have love
Until the end